I’m on defense dodging punches that don’t exist.
I was the one there when no one else was.
I saw you in all your glory.
In all the dust left after she left you discarded, hollow and used.
Three things I would never dare attempt.
I was the girl who loved you during your darkest moments.
In all your self loathing pity…
I saw a light you yourself didn’t recognize.
And now that you’ve found this flame,
you fail to remember
that I was the one
who blew that spark back into existence.
Funny how that works.
How the light can blind us
and the darkness makes us see.
Close your eyes old love
and you will see the times I held your heart
when you were too weak
to even acknowledge your need.
I did this out of love,
perhaps selfishly hoping
you’d return the favor
when I was to fall apart.
Only you were the one
to do the tearing
piece by piece
taking from me what you needed
until you found
there was nothing left
for me to give
for you to take.
And now you’re angry with me.
Perhaps, really disgusted with yourself
for destroying such beauty
the very thing that brought you back to life.